I’ve been clean month and 2 weeks now, but I can’t handle anything anymore in my life…I’m weak, i know, i’m worthless, i know, i’m stupid, fat and ugly, yeah, i already know it… I just need something that will take this pain inside me away even for a while… 
This razor blade is my key to the door where all my demons are hidden. I’ll open that door and the demons will leave with my blood. I can’t open them forever, not yet, but for now… this few minutes will be enough…